We were together again in the cheese section. I thought to get a photo of her so I could show someone on Facebook or Instagram or Snapchat a photo of her, of us, shopping together at Trader Joe's with our similar lifestyles. I thought maybe she sees me, so healthy, in new pants that I bought that are too big and maybe she is noticing how in shape I am but really it's just that I bought the pants in a size too large and they don't fit right. (And who am I kidding? I'm not in shape like I'm training for any event at all!) I didn't get a photo, because I was trying to be sneaky so I snapped my shopping cart, the floor, the mozzarella hunk I'd grabbed even though it wasn't on my list and she left the cheese without getting anything and I left with a 5,000 calorie hunk of cheese that was neither vegetable broth nor glass cleaner.
One last meeting in the frozen foods, by the berries. I took a bag of frozen raspberries, she took frozen strawberries. I considered putting my bag back and getting one like hers, as if that would bring me closer to winning any sort of medal, but I don't like frozen strawberries.
Then she drifted off. I'd like to think she was in the potato chip aisle, buying bags of those pretend healthy chips like kale or seaweed or fresh hay. But she was gone, and I looked over the chocolates, the little cups of peanut butter, the salted mounds of sesame caramel goo, the Scandinavian Swimmers in a bag, and I yanked up my pants by the belt loops and paid, thinking maybe I'll see her later today on my walk, that she's too old now to run at Medal speed, and she'll recognize me from the store and we'll share tips for how to train for local 5Ks or how to make fruit salad out of season.
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